Sad forest of dread, your morning crowds me
with loud hatred
and the whole world crawls in my head.
They sit on my couch, spilling coffee and
lies. Gross laughter – snorting
at sticky children.
I have said that I am not a city
to muck around, but they watch me
like my ancient bricks are
Italian art,
my legs,
my hands,
my lips become earthquakes
I am the black silence, awkwardly shaking
against the wall while a baby
crunches tomatoes against my skull,
and this flimsy morning is
scalding me with people
carrying invitations to disease.
I want to be free of
this nausea
and take some of their trade,
but I cannot.
My skin has been nourished by neglect
and poverty, I’ve been
eating grass roots and building castles
for worms,
and if you follow my example, you might be the
wisest, and the loneliest,
to ever sit in this sad, sad forest
of dread.
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