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Am I New
Flapping tongue, to change your name, to change yourself,
you say it’s smoking time, maybe if the zone changed,
but we run on desert time,
at devil lake
I wish I was, a reservoir, I wish I was a dog,
rolling in the dirt, a tumble weed,
collecting time and breeze,
in the hustle
flapping in my sleep to change position, to change disposition,
I meditate, a trumpet sounds,
an angel sings, is it me?
Did I work? Did the clock split my tongue
and now I am two?
Am I new?
In spite of great solitude
come the chirp, chirp of
dripping like water droplets
down the sink drain,
straightened out loud,
Alone as a daydream, deep
in a honeycomb,
rolled up in my own cigarettes
horror chirps in
the white plaster.
All day, mold forgets to grow.
It understands it is just a story,
not like the crickets that
chirp, chirp all night,
catching my sleep in their wings.
I miss them terribly
when night falls down drunk
and puts them to bed.
I wait for twelve hours,
picking hair from rubber carpet,
melting soap into black licorice
for the old neighbor man
with the old hat.
I wait till school buses smile
and wave good-bye to
I wait until the waves of L.A hold
the last handful of
sun, till the crickets come.
Stuck In A Jar
If I count on the hours to happen
regularly, I’d be stuck in
a jar, afraid of measurement against
Instead, my cells vibrate against
all odds. I crack eggs, scrambling
locked brains, eating for the
sake of eating.
I have only been substantial forever.
Nothing more. Just my face,
along with legs, and hands that
move like a floppy clock.
But my name, now that is something.
Every hour that comes,
every hour that goes,
will remember my name,
just the way my cells will remember
how small I am,
like an ant stuck in a jar,
burning from the most toxic hour.
The Death Of Aaron James
cello is a thick, heavy syllable
crying against the shoulder of
a thin woman,
a road of auburn hair trailing down her
spine. She understands value.
Prose is never numb,
it spans across nerves
playing emotions with finger
tips of red wood.
You brought Lydia to me
she dripped into my sleep
and led me
on a journey.
For you, she was a symptom of
something incurable. She opened my throat,
expanding me and you
The cello smiles with wide fingers,
thick like its soul.
Lydia takes me on a piano ride
in red wood snow where prose
grows and grows and grows.
I see that one arm is stubbed
by something. No one else can see
this, like it isn’t true.
To them, I am tragedy,
and I let them.
I am a hot potato
and they drool over food.
My crippled hands shove their
mouths full of muscle.
They like it raw
So, I give them my back bone
to gnaw on,
they snap it like baby pea stock.
I spend two years in the ground,
done with legs
I buried myself in dirt,
living with termites.
The thing about termites that no one else can see,
is that they aren’t true. To them, we are tragedy,
and we let them.
Old Memories Of Paris, Café Au Latte
Old memories of Paris, café au latte,
iron wrought on a kitchen sink
where she slimmed her figure
on a butcher block.
She dangled like a wind chime,
toes on pointe,
testing the winds and
the Gods on
Wisdom of Love.
Pretty little music box, my doll,
bathing in sunlight
through reflections of The Tower at
dawn. I asked her what she saw.
Her answer was as black as a widow
living off space between sun flower seeds.
I turned to her soul and spoke
to her in cotton,
souls always understand what is next,
I led her to confession.
She rattled all the way,
dangling eight unworthy legs –
shooting silk like
it meant nothing,
because that is all she had ever known.
By sunset, she had dried up.
Everything that she had devoured
had taken over
and spit her spirit out.
Demons sleep in the deep white,
a place to rest while
laundry drowns without ultimatum,
while dismembered chickens
swell in heat – sticking to
bits of parsley that grew this year.
People expire faster than milk.
If it isn’t there taste, it’s their
noises or gestures
or lack of reflection.
Kids are running off to school,
I leave the bread in the toaster.
One more day, slice open the demon,
guilt grows off walls
shames eats at intestines
all the people go, go, go
off to let me sleep in the deep
just the beginning,
slithers off wet lips with charm.
Mockingbirds use many tongues
to sing of slick footprints
At first blush they call,
crested blue, aggressive;
wild for the North,
where dragon fruit merges with devotion;
where I found his name.
We spread together as far as Summer could take us
until we melted into sunspots at the edge of the Earth,
high desert heat drying out our love.
Later, we flew south in high, asthmatic screams;
nocturnal – fugitive.
It is never the first time.
It is never the last.
His after tastes like a razor blade,
but I am a glutton and I cannot
let go of his name.