I was born to a gray world.
Void of sunlight.
Barricaded by ice.
Hunters have come for me. I watched them
sisters, a brother,
and the woman who birthed me.
I stayed, under rocks, under dirt,
for sixteen years. I washed myself
couldn’t come clean.
Stained with nights that smothered me
in the devils
My hair grew to the length of
a woman. Sweeping me
the dirt, standing me on
Then, my breasts grew,
not much larger,
For some time, I lived out
Screaming in sleep.
Silent during the dull day.
Grinding coffee beans
with quiet grips of rage.
I sliced each strand of woman from
became a man. I cut tears out of my arms
till I forgot how to
smashed my head heavy till
except that the world is gray.
My hair has grown back out
to the size of a woman
and my breasts haven’t grown
anything but heavy,
in a heavy body,
in a heavy gray body.
Your stuff is so heavy. Are you OK?
Thank you for asking! That is very kind of you. I am definitely ok. Had a rough life. Lots of it. If I don’t write, I’ll lose my mind. But I am definitely ok! 🙂
Well, I won’t say anything else but that your poems are strong, serious and filled with pain…I’ve been in that place, so if you need someone to talk to, I am a good listener and very intuitive. IM me. or otherwise.
Thank you. I will add you to my IM.
“the devil’s chest hairs”? Love that line!
Such an intense poem. Great writing!
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TRULY FROM HEART 😉
a a strong poem with deep existentiam meanings , well done.
Really really love this!
It’s when you can enter the THREAD of life, that, you find it.
LIFE- Love-cured, infinite, finite, Energy
Maggiemaeijustsaythis I loved your “I Was Born In a Gray World”. I felt like that for a long time. elizabooks.
Your sense of timing and word choice is impeccable! Great read 🙂
🙂 thank you and thanks for the comment!
This poem is full of painful feelings and thoughts that many can relate to. Thank you for writing such a piece…it reminds us of the harsh reality and the “gray world” we live in.